Tonight I got to spend some time with all my friends. We got a group of about 10 together, all from high school, everybody who I haven't seen for so long, and have missed. I got to catch up with just about everyone, and it felt really good. I love them all, and I'm so glad I finally got to see them all. I met my friend Dosha's new husband (yes! she's married!), and although it seems a little strange at first, I am so happy for them. Just seeing them together makes me really glad. It seems everybody has moved on, but they're still my same pals, and I'm just so glad that they are still around. It's been a few since I've been surrounded by people that make me really happy.

It's been a tough past few days, in my mind and in my house. I think it's hard to be around your family when everybody is having their own troubles and all you want is sympathy from them and to give them yours, but you don't know what's more important. Maybe I'm not getting what I seem to want from them, but really it could be a good thing that I've been taught to be independent and deal with my own shit and they'll deal with theirs. I'm not sure. But it's getting there. Tomorrow I'm leaving with my father and my sister for the weekend to go rafting in the mountains. I haven't spent a lot of time with my dad lately, and what it's like, that's a whole different story. A lot of the time it saddens me, but I've learned to deal with it my entire childhood. It's part of my life. I guess, I'm just hoping for a good time, and I'll be back soon enough.

Soon, I'll be moving back into my old life. Which in itself, will be different from when I left off. But after returning, I now know why it makes me so happy. I suppose, I'm on the road to being okay.