whoa it's been a while, and yep! i changed my title, you know gotta mix it up sometimes. plus i like my URL, so cool. i'm watching Ordinary People, which is a good movie, better book. I read it in 9th grade, probably one of the only books I really liked that we read that year. Mostly because I was so cynical about everything we did, since I hated HATED our teacher, ms. pearson, who i, and many others, believed to be a he-man, pig-faced, KKK member alcoholic. sheesh. anyway, yeah, it's a really sad movie. but i like conrad, he seems like a really good person.

so things: i feel slightly less stressed out about surface things than i did in the last few weeks. i was just dealing with crap, my computer broke, trying to get it fixed, etc...but i finally just got a new one and it's an Intrex, i like it, exciting. but this week, man, it seems trivial, and i've told people already, but my left eye has been twitching for the last few days. people have told me it's because i'm either too stressed out or need more sleep. and even though i know both are true, i don't feel like both are true in excess. it's weird.

i've started exercising everyday. just going to the src for 30 minutes or so during the day. i think it's a good step in trying to heal my back problems, although after going to the physical therapist for 2 months, and not seeing much change, it's hard to stay optimistic. now, i'm being referred to a spinal doctor, and i'll probably get some x-rays. that's scary. but i guess we'll see what happens? i don't know what's wrong with me.

i've also really gotten back into lyrics. (not that i ever really lost it.) i love music, and i love poetic music. i feel it should be appreciated. good musicians, and good writers. and another thing that i love, musicians that i can always depend on to do that. it's like counting on a good friend.

things are crazy. woo