I guess I've been thinking about how people quantify their lives. It's like people measure themselves against everyone else, and that what they've done and experienced somehow shows an achievement of some sort. But what does that achieve exactly? So i've really found appreciation for those who don't do that. It's very refreshing.

A lot of people will say that they don't care what other people think. But seriously, most people do. But I think it's a good thing, as long as you can still make decisions based on your own well-being. Other people are important, so of course you're gonna care how it affects them.

But what i'm saying is, i'm still gonna care what others think about me. But there's a point when you do something for someone else, and do something for yourself. I just don't want to do something because that's what people are supposed to do, or maybe that's what YOU do. Isn't that called like conforming? pressured conforming.

One. I don't want to quantify things in my life. Quality is better than quantity in most cases don't you agree? Two. Quality can only be determined by YOU. Nobody else. Not even the closest person to you, who maybe knows you as well as you know yourself. Not the person you trust the most, or respect the most. It's all you, baby.

Say you got something you never thought you'd have, and maybe even thought you didn't deserve it. You're not quite sure why you didn't deserve it, or maybe it's just because you never had it before, so you're wondering why you have it now. And at the same time, you're wondering why all these other people around you just go through their lives not terribly worried that what they have might one day be gone and they'll be unhappier for it. Because they have no fear that something equally good or better will come along. But not you. You know what you have, and you know that's it's good. But because you don't think about things the same way all the other people do, you doubt yourself.

But deep down, you know that what's yours is yours, and it doesn't matter. You love what's important to you, and that matters.

Just thinking and loving.