here you go

I'd like to piece my thoughts together as well as I can. I've seen a lot of posts by others about their political views, some incredibly angry, some bitter but comforting. I haven't really said much because maybe I didn't yet realize how emotional I am about it.

And probably, I won't even say everything I feel, although that might be nice to get off my chest. I don't know we'll see.

You know you are surrounded by a diversity of people. Some people have completely different views than you, do things with different intentions and to different degrees. Some won't understand how much it means to you. Some won't care about what's going on, because they are immersed in something else.

I've never been so politically charged in my life. Never before had I voted. So that's one thing. Never before have I been so unappreciative of authority. And that is saddening. But the other side is that I'm not alone. It refreshed me to think that millions of others feel the same way I do. They care about their country, and know that what happened, was not the right thing. So that feels good, that I'm not the only one. But at the same time it is so FRUSTRATING. that the other half of our country doesn't feel this way.

OK. I'm upset. I'm upset because 4 years ago, I wasn't pleased with the outcome of the presidential election. At 15, I knew there was some guy who didn't deserve to run our country, and I would avoid all contact. I rarely watched him when he appeared on television, it pained me. Now, I know that he's not a complete doofus, so I'm not going to say that. But what I did know, and continued to learn, was that someone else could do a better job, many before him have, so by all means, let's do our best to get him out. I'm saddened because here we are again, in a worse position, with the same man on our hands. I'm pissed off. I acknowledge why people voted the way they did. It's their beliefs and their stance, but for god sakes, at least have one. I'm pissed off because more than half of our country is so IGNORANT in buying into everything he says. I truly have a hard time listening to the man. That's why I avoided him for four years. But this year, especially as I'm enrolled in classes that really focus on the news, and sorta forced me to become informed, I can't avoid it. And I'm glad, because it really is important. So I guess, now I see its importance. This is our FUCKING COUNTRY we are talking about here, and so many people don't give a fuck. 1 out of 10 young people voted. Do you know how pathetic that is? Real. It really makes me so sad to see people supporting something that in my eyes screams WRONG. Yeah, it's politics. But since when did politics=religion. It's called church and state people, do you not understand that?? I just have been having a hard time dealing civilly because it's sorta hit me really strongly in the last few months, and it's been hard for me to let it go. It has been less than a week since this thing has been over. People just expect you to forget that everything you stand for has just been shot down. So I'm glad that people are able to move on with their lives, and of course I will. But I think it is just as important to express the woes of the aftermath. It's proof that something is important to you, and that you're not just going let it wisp over your face, like you can barely feel it, not even changing your expression.

And you know, it's going to get to me every once in a while, because that's how i work. I'll have something in the back of my mind for some time. It'll just stay there, but it'll move to the back and allow me to focus on something else. But every so often it will come back to the front and emotions will spew out.

I'm coming to terms. You can't make someone love a song. You can suggest it, and let them listen all you want. But it's their decision to whether they want to make it important.

The good thing is, there is someone else out there that loves the song as much as you. Maybe it is for different reasons, maybe they are the same. So listen to it together. But ultimately, just listen yourself. You'll remember why you love it and you'll keep loving it. You'll appreciate it more and yourself more.