much better

YESSS. Well everything is now fine. Nothing to worry about, only that I should keep doing better. Thank you god. I'm not screwed after all.

what happened to me

Well, I am officially home for two months, working three days a week, chilling out and getting ready for Costa Rica. That's all i have to do, nothing else to worry about right?

Maybe.

Well, I'm also officially in trouble. I reached too high. And failed. I thought I could do it all, and prove to myself that I could do it what everyone else told me was impossible. But I didn't achieve anything I hoped to. It was too much, and I lost it. Now I've lost my chance to be what I wanted to be. I used to be quite a great student. It was never a struggle for me, and I always prided myself on my academic achievement. But my sophomore in college....what happened? Something did, and it wasn't focused on academics. I guess you could say everyone has to hit a slump in their lives...but it's a matter of how they deal with it and if they choose the right path to get out of it. Well, here's mine. I thought I could do it, but I didn't.

So, right now, I don't know where I am going to go from here. But I am going to the best I can with the options I may or may not have. To be more specific, after this semester, my GPA has dropped too low for me to become a Journalism major (don't ask, it's a stupid stupid rule) which is essentially what I have been working toward. I am a double major with Biology and am currently struggling in it. I'm a rising Junior who is supposed to have a declared major and going somewhere with their life. As of this moment, I don't know what I'll be able to do.

I'm going to advising next week, and seeing what i can do about this. And i'm sorry for making a terribly boring post about academic shit. But i think it's an emergency.

Other than that, it's been nice to be home. And I'm going to the beach on Monday woot. More later.
-amy

this weekend!

wooohooo what a great weekend away from my life! i love those.

what did i do:

drove in the car with my family for a long time but it didn't seem long because i kept falling asleep. ate a really good dinner till like 11:00 pm in staunton, va. got pulled over for having a high beams on because "well, sir, most of the time people driving with their high beams on between 10 pm and 2 am are intoxicated. but it doesn't seem like that's the case." haha. went to two parties. one of which i had two glasses of wine and hardly knew anybody and just watched this guy talk about penises and make a deaf person impression for like 20 minutes. the second of which i got more trashed, talked to guys from VMI about their crazy lives, and played drinking games.

i woke up with a headache so i could meet my parents and see my sister graduate. had an awkward encounter with my mom and stepdad meeting my dad and his woman "friend". watched my sister graduate with my family. went to a barbecue. drove to uncle's house that's awesome. drank a margarita and a half with my relatives. watched everyone else and took pictures of them taking tequila shots. got really buzzed and fell asleep on the couch. then woke up to have an AMAZING DINNER: chicken and steak fajitas with everything good. my uncle is wonderful. ate a really good chocolate cake. sang a lotta karaoke with my relatives. i busted out some "walk this way" and faith hill. watched larry the cable guy till we all fell asleep. slept to awake to a humongously good breakfast: huevos, bacon, and hashbrowns, and lots of fruit. wished everybody mother's day.

lot of celebration. lot of love. awesome. awesome.

have to study for an exam but don't wanna! it's almost summer! wooooohooooooo

dammit! i never post!

so i finally found some time to make a post.

dude. i JUST finished TWO EXAMS. today was the day of hell. and i thinking i'm failing out of college, but i don't want to talk about it. so boobie. but i'm done with that shit. and i'm glad i chose to have fun this weekend rather than not. eff that. friday was fucking awesome. i wish i did that every day. me and rachel and jade lin had a great time being RETARDED and it was awesomely great. saturday was crazy, ended up going to the dth banquet, couldn't ever get a ride home but then did, and eventually ended up at 80s dance. it wasn't one of the best but despite my shoes, i still had fun in the end. the point is that i felt really great this weekend, despite everything. i hadn't felt that way in a really long time. it's hard to explain without being really specific, but i feel so much better. just putting things that suck aside and just saying i honestly don't care. making it better feels GREAT. i hope that stays.

you know, i'm myself. i can't pretend, or even attempt to be you, or anything else. sometimes you think that being like someone else would make you happier. but it's not the natural thing. and if you're not real, then who are you. what you do works for you, and that's lovely. but once you find happiness, you'll know why. and i bet you anything it won't be because you pretended.